Jesus said to Peter:
But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.
Luke 22, 32
At the last supper, Jesus said that someone would betray him. There was great consternation amongst the disciples, as none of them could imagine betraying their Lord. Some time later, Jesus turned to Peter and said: Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sieve all of you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers." But he replied, "Lord, I am ready to go with you to prison and to death." Jesus answered, "I tell you, Peter, before the rooster crows today, you will deny three times that you know me." Some time later Jesus was captured and questioned. Peter was close by and recognized him. But he denied everything until the rooster crowed, The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him. And he went outside and wept bitterly.That is human nature: when push comes to shove, we falter. Peter was always a good speaker and had the best intentions. But … then came the deep fall. And the worst of it was: Jesus looked at him. There was no accusation in his look, much worse: bottomless love, compassion, purity, knowledge, being seen through … it affected Peter much more than any reproach. He was unable to handle such deep love; he was used to fighting. Everything in him shattered and he brought his egotistical "me" before God’s altar: from now onwards it was all for Jesus, the Lord, who loved me so deeply! He was no longer proud of his abilities, his strengths, his knowledge, his speaking abilities… he could only cling to Jesus’ mercy. And indeed, Jesus took mercy upon him and took him, the new Peter, into his community and service. But this time it was a true relationship of love. The Lord was able to use Peter in a powerful way, as from this moment Peter walked hand in hand with Jesus and never turned back. Yes, our pride often keeps us from entering into this relationship with Jesus. This relationship is only complete when we have converted to Jesus. And then Jesus can use us for his great work.Jesus, it is impossible for me to impress You with my abilities; – You love me just as I am. And it is impossible for me to scare You away with my sins, – You forgive. Oh Lord, I capitulate before Your love and Your greatness! Please, take the whole of me, as I am!Bible reading today: Isaiah 55, 1-13